I’m under a lot of school stress, and I’ve been fairly sore with bodily tension since classes started. As of the third week of February, I finish my least favourite pat of the school term- midterms. Thanks to therapy and good medications, my strategy has adjusted from placing my head as firmly into the sand as I can, to neurotically trying to organize my tasks.
The other night (not last night, but the night before) my gentleman and I had an enormous misunderstanding related to acedemics. He found me curled into a small ball whining with stress and from my gibbering took the root of the situation to be that my midterms were next week, not that I’m a delicate flower with a low stress tolerance who weeps when things are going well. My lack of sleep and thus incoherence didn’t disabuse him of this notion and he proceeded to read me the riot act about working myself into a corner with procrastination.
Cue sobbing on my part, since I thought he was mad at me for being easily stressed. The next day I wandered off to class and while doing my usual between class studies, it occured to me why he was so upset. I came home to find him clad in clouds of steam, the last of the dirty dishes in his soapy dpaws, with a slightly guilty look and an apologetic declaration that if he was going to chew me up he’d better lead by example by doing all his chores, to which I casually mentioned that I in fact had two full weeks of study for my midterms, not the five days he had assumed and panicked over. There was a pause, and he became the gibbering one.
In any case, I’ve been spending a lot of time in the library lately, or curled up on a couch at school with a reading propped on my lap. I’m about helf done for the assinged readings for everthing up to the midterm, and my goal, which feels very reachable at the moment, is to finish the rest for Thursday. That’s about 5 chapters of Psychology (actually 1 in one class and 4 in another), 4 foreign policy readings, 6 chapters of foreign policy. There’s also a paper due on Wednesday in midterm week, which should be about 10 journal articles, as the page length is ten pages, and an idiot assignment on Freud VS evolution due this Friday, which I’m writing tonight after my voluntary french class.